Crashing California

I  have a confession.  And this confession will really either educate you all on my personality and being, or make you think I am right crazy (or a bit of both, lol) but I know that those who read here can be trusted =) I ran into a particular "issue" of the variety that requires antibiotics this week. No biggie right.  Here is the something that you might not have known about me. I have a complete phobia of taking pills.  It's not the swallowing them deal that scares me, it's the list of side-effects a mile long that come with whatever said drug I am needing to consume.  I don't know what it is but my mind runs rampant with ever ache, pain, tingle, and tinge that is not normal and thinks that I must be having an adverse reaction to whatever I am taking and I get incredibly (unusually) anxious about taking further pills, until about 3 or 4 pills in, till I really do realize that they are NOT infact killing me, and I can relax. I literally have to psyche ...

Mom and Me ~ in and around SD! and yes, we do have the same flipflops ... lol those are both our feets! This last week and a bit has been very out of the ordinary -- my mom flew down to visit for a week during my birthday -- which was pretty cool and coincided with Jay flying off to Hawaii to spend some time with his Dad for a week. My mom left on Wednesday and I couldn't help but feel rather isolated. With my mom AND my husband both more than equally thousands of miles a part from me. But I don't know that lonely was the word.  I have been trying to pray to God and just know that He is with me. But I would not like to do life alone. I guess it's good to realize that every once in a while. This morning is raining down our winter from the heavens and I am enjoying some brewed java for the first time in a while (my coffee maker broke, so last night I went out and bought a small coffee press, I've always wanted one, and this one is large enough for just one cup, ...

{Can I just say for the record (completely NOT the content of my blog) I can't stand it when people come into my little crap-tastic office for two and begin a conversation with my co-hort by either a) speaking another language (spanish) or b) speaking in a very low/whisper type voice so as too assume that I cannot hear what they are saying, and really I can't, but still, I'm like 5 feet away ... c'mon people ... just happened at any rate, in case you couldn't tell, haha ... onto the blog} Reflections can be what you see in a mirror, a lake or other body of water, maybe a piece of "shiny something" ...and being the beginning of this year, 2012, it's time to do some reflecting, and also some "future gazing" ... it's a good day for that as I got my first, "call back" interview with a company I had met with before Christmas.   -- I can now confirm, I am completely disengaged with the whole JC machine.  In reality I am just wait...