Crashing California

Dear Dad, I hate that I am writing this  -- I've been fighting it for a long time.  But one day everything will be brought to the light, and it's too dangerous for me to keep silent, keep these emotions locked in the house of my heart.  I am getting older, and this woman doesn't need to feel like a little girl. Even though I do, every time I think of you. and I suppose it's easier and better this way, I know it is because I can rationalize and understand the circumstances as a woman, not a girl, but in that same breath it's that much harder because there is no going back. and the feelings that I wish I could own I can't. Because you can't give them to me. Why did you leave? —and I'm not talking about now (because that's how I feel, if there was ANY way for someone to leave someone else without even having met them, a large congratulations because you seem to have accomplished the impossible) — I am talking about the first time you ran ... the...

so, I had written a post for christmastime, but I'm deciding against posting it, as it's a bit more just for me and I may share it in the next couple days ... but we'll see ... it's about my dad. (Self explanitory). For now, I just wanted to send out a Very Merry Christmas into our internet-blog-land from us. The year has been pretty loaded with good things and some tough stuff. We bought our first home (yay!) and said goodbye to our humble beach pad. Had our music recognized by the Hollywood Music in Media Awards and our album added to Pandora (the largest music website here in the US).  We had a wonderful trip to Maui and I had my sister (fathers' side) down to see California.  On the downside of the year, we (I) had a car crash in the subaru, which resulted (thankfully) into two cars, for nearly the same out of pocket.  And we said goodbye, just recently, to our Grandma Huzil, who went to be with the Lord on Dec. 14th. I guess I should also mention we survi...

At our first Christmas Party of the Season. Well, I'm glad to see my blog back in the internet-sphere!! (In case anyone had noticed, the home page had disappeared the last little while!) Plus,  I've been so busy the last little while, quite honestly, writing has been the last thing on my mind, but as Christmas begins to creep it's head into the near future, I realize, it's been a LONG while ... and peeps deserve an update! It's been a whirl of a last couple months. The accident of October has catapulted the Huzil's into not one, but  (as of today infact) TWO new cars ... one little green "munster" (my primary ride) a 2013 Kia Soul, and a 2008 Infinity G35 S for Jay. We just signed the papers on that puppy this afternoon.  It might seem like a strange move from the outside, since Jay loved the Subaru so very much, but I think we both could agree, after the accident, the car just sort of lost a bit of it's lustre ... it carries bad m...